Life With Baby

Tomorrow my little tyke is one month old. It's hard to believe how fast time is flying... I'm feeling more comfortable in my role as Mom, but that comfort only extends to my property line. The last (and only time) I've ventured out alone with her, I ended up in tears... but of course that was two weeks ago and we went to the doctors office where I fumbled about with my newborn feeling like a newborn babe myself... but I have gotten a little bit more confidant. I'm still so very afraid of her bursting into one of her crying fits and not being able to calm her. At home I comfort her with a boob, a diaper change or with a go in the rocking chair. But out in the real world, I can't do that...

We venture out alone again on Monday when we make our one month check up at the doctors... and hopefully she doesn't scream her head off when the doctor pretends to drop her to check her reflexes...

Maybe in two weeks I'll be more able to take her out and debut her to the world... we have yet to take her anywhere in public... liking to keep her locked away in our cozy little home... Soon, soon.

But motherhood is good, tiresome, but good. We're dealing with her crying as it comes (and boy does it come!!!!). She was such a good baby for two weeks, and now she loves to let loose in the evenings. I suspected colic, but she's consoliable and it doesn't last for hours on end... it lasts until my butt hits the rocker or I whip out dinner (sorry for that reference). She has her good nights, where she sleeps like an angel or goes down at a great hour... and she has her bad nights where she refuses to go to sleep or wakes up for two hour periods (let me tell you, there's nothing good on TV at two in the morning).

My husband is trying his best to help out... he can't stand too much of the crying, it drives him crazy at some points, but he's learning and trying his best. I give him major props for working full time and coming home to a haggled (usually covered in spit up and still in her PJs) wife. :) He is the best.

Well, my baby is calling... time to eat!