Don't Jynx Me!!

My Mom is swearing that I'm having my baby this weekend (*knocks on wood*). I'm trying to ignore her... She called me yesterday and I didn't get to my cell phone fast enough (which is nothing new with me, I'm always slow to answer my phone b/c it's usually stuck at the bottom of my purse and I can't hear it), so two minutes later, she's ringing me again all worried that I'd had the baby or something.

*rolls eyes*

Yes, I know Mom's are supposed to be like this, but COME ON!! Leave me be! I'm grumpy and don't need her to jynx me into having my baby early. It's too soon! I'm only 36 weeks and considered pre term! Besides, if I go in early for my c-section, they call it an emergency c-section and have to put my baby in the NICU and she has to be observed and can't be with me. I've told everyone that since I've carried her with me for this long, as soon as she comes into the world I want her all to myself, not carted off to be alone with strangers who might poke and prod at her.

I want none of that!

So, I'm holding this baby in until the 16th damnit!

:p

Besides that baby mama drama, nothing is going on. My feet are swollen, I'm exhausted, and hungry... but that's nothing new, is it? :D

Day in the Sun

I'm currently sitting under the biggest oak tree on our property, listening to the windmill whirl, the birds chirping and the wind blowing. The sun is shining, it's the perfect temperature and I'm on the internet... Does life get any better than this?

I think not.

:)

Friday morning my friend delivered her twin girls and yesterday we went and saw them... well, we only saw one b/c the bigger of the two is in the NICU b/c she stopped breathing once she came out (can you say scary?). But we did get to drool over the tiny one (Baby A) through the nursery windows and hang out with the mama for a few minutes. I was a bit worried that going to the hospital would freak me out and I'd have a panic attack from the nerves. But I did pretty good. Mama was sitting up in the hospital bed, eating her lunch, yakking with all her vistors without a care in the world. Now I think if she would've been laid up in bed, moaning about the pain or this and that, then I would've had a problem, but since she wasn't, I didn't.

I mean, I have less than 20 days until the little squirt comes out... and I have to admit, my nerves are being tested b/c I'm scared. Nervous abouot becoming a parent, nervous about the whole procedure, nervous about life beyond being pregnant.

I know this is normal... what mother doesn't go through this (besides veterans?). It's totally okay for me to panic, just a bit... I know the night before the surgery will be meltdown time, but I'm positive that Mr. SuZ can keep me calm, right? :D

*sigh*

Less than 20 days... less than 20 days.

Nerves of Steel... I think not.

My friend had her twin girls this morning @ 4:45 am. One of them had fluids in her lungs and they had to put her on oxygen... then they decided to transport her to another hospital b/c she wasn't doing so well. Poor girl... poor mom.

I can't imagine going through that... but I have to b/c in three weeks my due date is here and my daughter could end up having problems (*knock on wood*). It's so damn scary to think about... and it makes my nerves go cold. There's no way you can predict what will happen when your baby is born...

I wasn't really scared or nervous about giving birth up until now... The realization is starting to hit me and I'm doing my best to keep my calm...

Egh, any advice? Suggestions? Relaxation methods?

True or False?

Erika (I can't link to her blog b/c I'm an idiot) tagged me, so here we go. I have to tell you seven weird things about myself. Six will be true, one will not. You choose the false one.

Okay, here goes:

I have the amazing ability to make my pupils shake on command (and my husband is the only other person I know who can do this, match made in heaven, huh?).

I have no problem walking around our horse farm without shoes, without a care of what I'm walking in.

I can drive a 4x4 better than most men, don't mind mud under my nails and have ten pigs in my back pasture.

I hate cleaning my ears and it drives my husband crazy.

My SUV is always, always a mess.

I know stupid useless facts and like to pass them on to anyone who will listen (like, did you know that if you flush a toilet the force of the water can propel fecal matter for 20 feet?).

I have absolutely no problem with the fact that my husband takes nude photos of women for a living.

Now it's my turn to tag someone... so... Jennifer- You're it.

I love the Sunshine State

Days like today make me realize just how happy I am that we moved back to Florida. It is the perfect day. Warm (in the high 70s), slightly breezy and sunny as can be. Not a damn cloud in the blue sky either... The ability to wear shorts and flip flops in February is one of the best perks of being from Florida. We can swim anyday of the year (except for maybe two or three), wear open toed shoes all year long, never own a heavy coat or a pair of gloves, and have the need to have sunglasses every damn day of the year... it makes me smile.

I'm quite proud that my girl is going to be a Florida native, we're a dying breed here.

Speaking of the girl, we saw the doctor this morning. Everything is on track, my doctor just wants me to stay off of my feet as much as possible and keep my swollen toes up when I can.

So I'll be spending tons of time sitting on the world's most comfortable cough, watching tons of Sex and the City DVDs, reading books and watching bad daytime TV... Tough life, huh?

So if you don't hear from me, that's where I'll be.

:)

Utter Exhaustion

Man, this whole pregnancy thing is tough!

Not really, but I am wiped out today! Yesterday I had my baby shower and it was WONDERFUL! All my friends came and my family from SC came down as well. We had a fabulous time, played cute baby shower games, opened presents and had CAKE (my favorite part of the day!). Miss Ava got tons of cute things, she'll be swaddled in pink outfits for the rest of her life!

And a wonderful surprise from my friend was a gift to me: a red corset! :) :) :) I love love love corsets and actually had the waistline to pull them off before baby (aka B/B). So when I pulled it out, I died!! I'm dying to get into I mean! I hung it on my closet door for inspiration once Miss Ava is born.

My two friends who threw me the shower did a great job. The house looked amazing and the food was scrumptous. I'm so happy they did this for me.

I have another shower in two weeks with my hubby's side of the family, it won't be as cool, but it'll be fun b/c JB's grandma kicks ass. :) :) :)

So after a long day yesterday, shopping in the AM with family (thanks for the new pots and pans Mom!) and the baby shower in the afternoon you'd think I'd stop and relax... Nope, I put all the baby cards and pictures into a scrapbook, then did all of my thank you cards while watching the Apprentice. Then, only then did I take a quick bath and crash.

I'm still not recovered from it either.

I could crash right at the computer desk... but I won't. I'm too hungry to do that. :)

Have a great day!

Another Day in Paradise

I remember when I used to work 40 hours a week and go to school full time at night, I used to complain (!!) about how bad I wanted to quit working and finish school and do nothing but write all day long...

Well, now my dream has come true with one exception.

I can't write crap.

I finished my degree, I quit my job, I get to sit at home all day long and watch bad (bad, bad, bad) TV and I can't wrap my fingers around a pen and force the words out.

Once again, I blame this writer's block on the little peanut growing in my belly... I tried the other night and was successful at pouring out over 600 words for a new chick lit novel I've been thinking about... but the next morning, the sight of my computer made my stomach roll. I just couldn't do it! My husband doesn't understand and laughs at me... well, I laugh at him (just b/c I can).

Maybe once she pops out it'll all come rushing back to me... of course by that time I'll be so damn tired and busy I'll only be able to jot down ideas on post it notes.

Anyhoo...

Baby Shower #1 is this weekend. A house full of relatives and friends and CAKE! I'm excited. I just hope I can find enough chairs for everyone.

Wish me luck.

Ta Ta.

Boo Hoo

I could cry... I finally had to wrench off my wedding band today. :( :( :( I was talking to a buddy of mine and he advised me that I had to do it really really soon, if not now b/c my fingers were going to get nothing but worse (he's a trained EMT). So I slathered up my ring finger with lotion and pulled with all of my might... and now I hate the way my hand looks!

I've never taken the ring off before!! I feel so naked without it, so exposed. :(

Heartbreaking, I know.

I'm currently wearing it on my pinkie finger.

Good Hair Days

Yeah for good hair days!!!

Not that I get them very often, but today is one of those days.

Celebrate with me now!!

Step Away From the GS Cookies

Damn Girl Scout cookies!!

I pulled into 7-11 (conveince store) today and gasped so loud that I'm positive everyone pumping gas heard me, "Look honey! Girl Scout Cookies!!"

I wait every year to see those cute little kids dressed up in their uniforms peddling their delicious goods outside of shopping stores. When I see them, it's like I'm a kid in a candy store (My mouth waters just thinking about the two boxes of peanut butter patties I've got in my truck).

Of course, the girl scouts couldn't have come at a worse time... a time when I'm trying to cut back on my sweets and ignore my cravings for anything chocolately or full of peanut butter. I could scream... but I could also eat both boxes of cookies in one sitting.

:)

On a good note, we've finally finished moving. Now all I need to do is purchase a bookcase and put away all our DVDs and the house will be perfect! Just in time for next weekend's baby shower!

Keep It To Yourself, Damnit!

It seems lately all I hear, from everyone from complete strangers to realtives, is: "You're ready to pop!"

Just picture me cringing and doing my best not to glare and snap back at them with some witty retort. Because that's what happens everytime, and it happens A LOT, when someone opens their big mouth and comments on my pregnancy.

If it's not that comment, it's: "Are you sure there's only one in there?"

I HATE this! HATE IT! I mean, come on. I'm not that big! Plus, I'm not about to pop, I still have five weeks left! It makes me want to hide out in my house and ignore the world around me.

At least no one else has tried to touch me.

Swollen Pigs

I've come to the conclusion that until I pop this baby out, my feet will not look normal. Until my daughter graces the world with her presence, I will continue to have feet that look like doughy loaves of bread...

Doughy loaves of bread that always make me want to eat bread... is that disturbing?

I've tried everything to get them back to normal; I've even cut out bacon! And I love love love bacon. I eat most of my meals at home, I'm staying away from the salty stuff and drinking water and NADA!! Nothing but swollen, fat feet that tend to jiggle when I walk and ache when I'm sitting.

Ah, being pregnant is glorious.

:)

Quick Update

Why does finidng free internet make me so happy?

Probably has something to do with how expensive internet has become lately.

But alas, I found it for free at my new favorite used bookstore in the downtown area of our new home town. Woo Hoo for that.

Things on the homefront are great. I've set up the mailbox, Mr. SuZ has painted a few walls, and we should have the rest of our stuff from storage in our new casa by tomorrow. :) Plus I'm having my first guests come over for dinner tomorrow.

If only it weren't so dreary and rainy.

Have a great day!

Slowest Move Ever

Well, it's offical. You can call this the SLOWEST MOVE EVER!!!

My husband and I still haven't finished moving all the crap out of our storage unit. While we finally started last night moving things, we seem to be moving slower than the average turtle. Normally when we move, I'm bound and determined to get it over with ASAP and bust my ass moving anything and everything I can pick up (or fit into my truck). But this whole pregnancy thing places me on my husband's time schedule and let's just say he's not the most motivated mover.

One of the main reasons I'm in a hurry now is because the longer our stuff sits in storage, the more money I have to pay... and buying a house isn't cheap and one less bill would be idle at the moment.

On the happier side of things, we did move the world's most comfortable couch in last night and today I got to lay on it's splendid glory and read a book! I haven't been that happy in so long!! :)

If you're interested in seeing pics, drop me a line.

Have a great night!